You don't seem to know, Seem to care what your heart is for....

New Years Eve Day!! And a 3 day weekend coming up! Yesterday was a great day off. My dryer was delivered and I did a bunch of laundry and the princess and I finished the Halloween movie series.

I have to make a really hard decision about my bangs again. Grow them or cut them??? I just really don't know which way to go. They are kind of a pain. But they cover up my forehead. Ugh! What to do??

I wasn't going to make any New Year's resolutions, but there is one I need to make. It's not appropriate to discuss here, but I will have to write it down somewhere. Just one of those things I need to deal with. I hate dealing with things.

I think tonight will be a night of Netflix and wine. I really did think about going out, but I would rather be home in my pajamas if I can't do what I really want to do.

I have a 3 pound bag of wild rice so I think I'm going to make soup tomorrow. Because yum!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VV1XWJN3nJo
And this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cwkej79U3ek

I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you....

So I brought my work laptop home last night and was all prepared for 6-12 inches of snow and working from home. But I was unable to connect to the work network and we only got like 3 inches of snow. I couldn't really justify a snow day when it would only take me about 45-50 minutes to get to work. Maybe the next snowfall. First I need to figure out how to overcome a "cannot connect to network, you are near a hotspot" error. I guess I could call the help desk, but that requires effort and initiative, which I sort of kind of lack.

And I have tomorrow off!! And my new dryer is being delivered!!

I've been listening to a lot of Alanis Morissette. I remember listening to the Jagged Little Pill cd on repeat back in '95 when I was feeling particularly angsty. I had a lot of anger and hurt to get over back then. And thanks to Alanis, I did get over it.

The awesome NFL scheduling people flexed the Vikings-Packers game to 7:30. This makes me so very happy. I love not getting enough sleep. Hopefully the Vikes take out Rodgers early and the game is decided at halftime. That would be the most ideal scenario.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdG7DYopRkM

Gonna make you, make you, make you notice....

Monday! I need way more coffee. Getting up was so hard this morning. I slept with my two favorite things - my Vikings blanket and my NKOTB sleeping bag. It was awesome!

I was up way too late last night, but totally worth it! I watched a fantastic Vikings game and got to see the Packers lose. Couldn't ask for a better Sunday. Well, actually, a better Sunday would have had the game being played at noon. But for a win, I will sacrifice sleep. And the Vikings absolutely dominated!  And next Sunday's game is major!! But it totally sucks that I had to stay at my dads to see the end of the game, so I got home about 2 hours past my bedtime.

Saturday the Princess and I had a movie marathon over at Ggg' s house. He was gone, so we took over his house and watched Halloween 1-6, except 3. It was awesome to spend time with her doing something we both enjoy: sitting on the couch watching tv. If she wakes up early enough, we are going to watch a few more Halloween movies on Wednesday since I have the day off.

I was going to go for New Years, but I've decided to just stay home with Netflix. I'm happier at home alone. Maybe the Princess will want to watch a movie.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7Hy7uAb_eU

the longer I live the more I believe....

I really tried to sleep in this morning. But I've been up for about an hour. And I even stayed up until 11:30 watching Once Upon a Time. Maybe a nap later!

There's this app game I've been playing for a few years called Wordament. You play live against real people, 2 minute rounds and try to make as many words as you can. The highest number of people I've ever seen playing is about 1700. People from all over the world play. A coworker just asked me if I played because she saw my name on the scoreboard. It's just so weird that she plays too when only about 1000 people in the whole universe are playing at one time. Anyhow, it's one of my favorite games. And it's such a small world!

We went over to ggg's last night to pick up the Princesses phone case. She accidentally had it shipped there. Because sometimes eBay sucks and before you even know it happened, you've set up shipping to the wrong address. Anyhow, we did the Christmas present thing, and she absolutely flipped out over what he got her. She was so excited about a pair of Freddy Krueger socks. They are so weird, and so totally her. She talked about them the whole way home. And she also loved the Amazon fire stick thingy. And she was so excited that he picked out a movie she loves. Her and I saw it in the theater when it first came out and it scared me a little bit. She so loves horror movies. He honestly got her the best presents ever. But it's not the presents, it's that they are so perfectly her.

Ggg got me a Vikings scarf, which I love. But even more so I love that it is a truly thoughtful gift. Those are the kinds of things that are so meaningful. Someone taking the time to think about it, that's a gift that no amount of money can buy. I so appreciate him.

I think he liked his presents. Alyssa got him a shirt that so makes me lol. It's a beer mug plus a football that equals a thumbs up. And thumbs up make me giggle for some reason.

It's too early to start my day, but too late to go back to sleep. Merry Christmas Eve to me! Lol


https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7k4ujBGRGf8

Trying to keep up with you, And I don't know if I can do it

Wednesday/Friday!! I'm so glad. It has been a super long week. Like 90% of my auto policies renew on 1/1, so I've been processing them all week. And I've been fielding all the phone calls from the happy customers who are thrilled with the rate increases. Apparently yelling at me makes it all better. Pro tip: if you are at least cordial with me, I will work with you to find ways to lower the premium.

My new dryer is being delivered next Wednesday! And it's a super nice one! I have pretty much the greatest dad ever! I never thought I would be so excited about a dryer, but I can't wait to actually dry my jeans so they won't be so crunchy! You gotta do what you gotta do, and I'm not really complaining about it. Just excited to not have to do it!

I'm not sure how it happened, but I'm carrying over 28 PTO days. I thought I used more than 23. This means I will start 2016 with 54 days. I could make every week a 4 day week and still have a couple days left. Not that I can, but I could. That's a lot of days. I guess that's what happens when you work here for 17 years and have 2 years in a row where taking any days off is discouraged.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=if-UzXIQ5vw

Why am i so dizzy when you're looking at me....

It's Tuesday/Thursday! I am so ready for a 4 day weekend. I just need to get through 2 more days.

I finished nearly all of my Christmas shopping last night thanks to Target.com and their guaranteed Christmas delivery. I still have a couple little things to pick up, but nothing major. I need the presents for the dice game. No idea what I'm going to get for that. I also need some glitter and glue for a quick project if I have time. But I'm not entirely sure. I need to think about this a bit more, I'm running out of time.

I'm loving this December. No socks and festive shoes on Dec. 22nd!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0VkDI86Jr0

Only yesterday was the time of our lives.....

The Monday before Christmas.....this month has flown by. I can't believe I only have a few days to wrap up all my shopping and cooking. I need to make a shopping list so I don't forget anything. So, the first thing on my to-do list is to make a list.

I had a pretty good weekend. I finished Hart of Dixie. Such a cute show. And then I started Once Upon a Time. I've tried to watch it a couple times but couldn't really get into it. But I gave it another chance and I really do like it.

Yesterday I went over to my dad's and cleaned out several cabinets and cupboards. We ended up with 4 huge boxes to donate, a full trash can and I took home a few bags of sheets and towels. The towels will be nice since we always seem to run out. This not having a dryer thing kind of sucks. We always have clothes hanging from every available surface. But getting a new dryer is not exactly a priority right now.

Thank you to my wonderful co-worker TK who told me that my weight loss program is really working. That was a super sweet compliment.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0

One guy's wasted and the other's a waste.....

FRIDAY!! I'm so glad this work week is almost over. I need a weekend. Tomorrow is my usual laundry and Netflix. Sunday the Princess (if she wakes up in time) and I are going over to my dad's to clean out a couple cabinets. He's finally admitting he needs to downsize. He doesn't really need 172 sheet sets or 87 bottles of Windex. So that and the Vikings game are what is on the agenda.

I'm a little bit sad that I wasn't able to get Adele tickets yesterday. I was stuck in a meeting until 10:15 and by the time it was over and I was able to log on to ticketmaster, both concerts were sold out. Oh, well. That's the way it goes sometimes. I'm just not used to not getting what I want. LOL

I haven't listened to this in FOREVER:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWH85xlhZbI

Nobody knows if it's something to bless or to blame....

Weigh in a day late. And the scale has not moved. This is good since I have had to skip my workouts since I've been sick. I need to get back on the treadmill, but at least I'm eating well enough that I'm not gaining weight. And maybe being on a plateau for a while will make the next round of losing easier. Here's to hoping.

I've spent 7 hours over the last 2 nights playing Bingo Blitz trying to help some people in my trading group. 7 hours and I've managed to help 3 people. I so hate the changes to BB and how hard they have made it to win extra items to help people.

The Princess is sick and does not want to go Christmas shopping tonight. I need to remember to stop and pick up cards so I can get them mailed out. Why am I such a procrastinator?

I bought the cutest tank top and was super excited to wear it today with a hot pink sweater over it. I didn't try it on when I got it, and I'm so cranky that it is way too big. So I had to scramble around to find something to wear this morning. I hate when that happens. I guess I should be happy that it was too big. But now what to do with it??


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ecE1UML1q8

And heart to heart you'll win.....

It snowed last night so the roads are wet and icky. Note to the car behind me: it defies common sense to expect that I can drive faster than the car in front of me. I am in the right lane, and there is exactly 1.5 car lengths between me and the car in front of me. I can not possibly go faster. I can't. So maybe switch lanes and go around me??

I heard a Trader Joe's commercial this morning trying to sell blue cheese. Note to trader Joe's: talking about how you inject it with penicillium 138 and 147 and then coat it with black wax and pierce it does not make it sound at all appealing. Maybe try to sell it based on taste and not on the chemically-sounding virtues. Just a thought.

The 4th season of Hart of Dixie is on Netflix. I can't wait to watch it this weekend. It's not that it's even that good of a show, but it is totally mindless. And I could use totally mindless.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47y5bo8wtqM
Oh, and this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_50-gOeBilc

We all chase something and maybe this is a dream.....

Last night I was sleeping by 7. Not sure why I went to bed so early, but I love sleep so much! And at least I shouldn't be tired today. I had some super odd dreams. I keep dreaming that I'm super late for work because it takes me HOURS to get ready. Even on the days I shower and have to blow dry my hair I can get out of the house in 45 minutes. Such a strange dream. And plus I'm always here early, usually half an hour or so early.

I need to get my Christmas cards written out and mailed. I exchange cards with a few members of my facebook bingo group, and I've gotten their cards so I need to mail out mine. Why am I such a procrastinator? I love cards!

I was thinking about some of the best presents I've ever received and how special they are. Probably the best one is a poem that the Princess wrote me and framed a couple years ago. And the scrap book she made me. And the pictures of her and I that she put together in a frame last year. Her friend CH wrote me a letter for Christmas a couple years ago and that was so awesome. I keep it at work in case I'm having a bad day. I can take it out and read it and feel appreciated. Those are the best presents I've ever gotten. I am so fortunate and blessed!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jd_p93TC8Hw

But somehow it's just not that easy.....

Monday....and it's raining on Dec 14th. I love this weather. It's wet and windy, but it's not super cold. I hope it stay this warm out for a bit longer, I love not wearing a jacket. Jeans starting today through the end of the year. This would normally be a super awesome thing, but I can't wear any of my holey jeans, so that limits what I can wear. And I don't have very many pairs that fit me well. Today I am wearing a pair with a couple of small rips. I will just hide out in my office all day and avoid people and then no one will know.

I had a nice weekend of nothing. Laundry and Netflix.  I started watching Marvel's Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. I think I kind of like it. So now C-C-W wants to introduce me to the Marvel Universe or whatever it's called. I guess I'm open to anything.

I read a lot of posts on this anonymous writing site called novni. novni.com I write a lot there, too, but I usually don't post it for public viewing. There are numerous settings, you can post so no one (including you) can ever see it again. That's what I usually do. You can also post and choose whether or not to allow comments. It's all completely anonymous. And you can comment on peoples posts if they choose to allow it. It's a nice place to write with no judgement. Sometimes just writing things down helps. Even if no one ever reads it.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcNyk54b3ZU

I ain't the woman in red, I ain't the girl next door......

I stayed up way too late last night. I had a super great time over at C-C-W's, even though we lost. It was actually a pretty good game, and we stayed in it. Which surprises me a little bit. Her husband apparently had Larry Fitzgerald playing on his fantasy team, because he really wanted LF to score.

We had fantastic pizza and the oreo ice cream cake I made was phenomenal! If only we could have won the game!

I was just reading through my texts from Ggg last night and they make me laugh. It's basically just a bunch of F words back and forth. Not sure why that makes me giggle. Probably because I don't say that word a whole lot. C giggled too when I showed her what we were texting back and forth. Although the reasons for the words were not funny. Fumbles and missed tackles. Ugh! the turnovers did them in. I think I need to burn the Bridgewater jersey. I wonder if I can return it as defective?? 

It's the middle of December and I didn't wear a jacket. I hope all winter is like this!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-HVP01goE4

Anything you want, we can make it happen.....

Thursday!! Yesterday Tegan went to the vet and got spayed. And it cost about $100 less than I expected! She's doing great, although the Princess pointed out to me that I've spelling her name wrong. It's Tegan, not Teagan. Oops!!

Tonight is going to be a great night! BFF time with C-C-W, pizza, oreo ice cream cake, and the Vikings game! Maybe she will become a football fan! We can hope, right? Anyhow, it's going to be a late night but so worth it! Thank you, C-C-W for letting me come over! You are the bestest!!

I have an excellent weekend of nothing planned! Laundry and maybe (just maybe) cleaning the kitchen. We shall see. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWzy5q_M5Ho

You put the sparks to the flame....

Tuesday.....I went to bed super early last night and slept through until 3 without waking up coughing. Maybe, just maybe, I might be getting better. I almost forgot my coffee this morning, so I had to run back home to get it since I wasn't very far away yet. How can I forget my coffee??

As soon as I got to work I ditched my socks. In the trash. because I really do hate wearing socks. I've been wearing them since I'm sick, but so not worth it. Not sure why I hate them so much. I'm wearing heels today. I hate heels as much as socks. But these pants deserved something a bit more dressy than my normal flats.

That's it. My super interesting life condensed down to two paragraphs about coffee and socks.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_T2Dxgn-lls

I'm just a notch in your bedpost....

Monday. It's going to be a long day. I can't quit coughing. I was sleeping by 7:30 last night, so I think I got enough sleep. Hopefully that will help the cough go away.

My weekend was okay, but I don't want to talk about the Vikings game. I watched netflix pretty much nonstop. It was great. I started watching The Flash. I didn't expect to like it, but it's a good show. I watched a movie on Prime called If I Stay. It was just not very good.

I made 2 crock pots of chili on Saturday. It may have been my best kitchen creation yet. I brought some over to my dads for the game. And we will probably be eating chili all week.

One of my favorite lines from a song: "Wishing to be the friction in your jeans".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhG-vLZrb-g

You could be my someone, You could be my scene

Did I really stay up an hour and a half past my bedtime to watch the worst football game in the history of football games? What the hell, Detroit?? To be very clear, the Packers didn't win, the Lions lost. How did they not expect and guard against what they had to expect the final play would be??? Yeah, you could blame the refs, but it never should have come down to the final 6 seconds. I want my lost time back.

At least it's Friday.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJJsoquu70o
and this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPC2Fp7IT7o

Who do you need? Who do you love?

So somehow last night I finished a bottle of wine. And slept for 5 straight hours. That is more that I have slept in the prior 3 nights combined. It was awesome! I did still wake up around 2 coughing, but at least I slept a lot. Thank you to the person who suggested I drink myself to sleep. although I do have a bit of a hangover today. Totally worth it!! And sorry for the drunken text convo. I can be slightly obnoxious!

I super hope that the t-shirt I ordered for C-C-W comes before next Thursday so I can give it to her. It's so funny!!! I'm going over to her house to watch the Vikings game. Well, I'm going to watch it, and shes going to pretend to. She hates football, but she likes me. LOL Plus I'm bringing an oreo ice cream cake. I'm betting before the end of the first quarter she is watching netflix on her laptop with her headphones.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-eUufUZYgA

Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time....

Weigh-in Wednesday.....I'm down half a pound from last week, and considering Thanksgiving and several restaurant trips, I am very happy with that! 

Who needs sleep anyway?? It's been several days since I've slept through the night, and I can only hope it happens soon. I'm sick of being sick. I'm sick of coughing. I'm just sick in general. 

Nothing else to say, except this: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvl7240TZTc 

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find....

Let's summarize today in bulletpoints:

1. I went to bed at 5 pm and ended up getting a total of 37 minutes of sleep. Every time I would fall asleep I would wake myself up coughing.
2. I have too much work to do to call in sick.
3. Life is not fair, and it is never going to be fair. So sometimes you just gotta say whatevs and suck it up.
4. It's dumb to cry over spilled milk because at the end of your crying jag, you still have milk to clean up.
5. Sometimes the little, seemingly meaningless things hurt more than the big things. But then you just have to put on your big girl panties and deal with it.
6. I was once again reminded why C-C-W is the very best friend I've ever had in my entire life. I'm pretty sure I don't deserve to have such a wonderful friend. Thank you for being the solution to my problem and for making me both laugh and cry!!! It's nice to cry over good things for a change. I love you more than can be conveyed with words.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7k0a5hYnSI