At the end of the day I have myself to blame......

It's Friday!!! And I kind of look like bloody hell. I had a very long night. But we write our own stories, so it's all on me. It just sometimes seems like every time I start to move forward, something pulls me back. I know life's not fair, but I wish that sometime I would get a huge break. I'm trying not to wallow in self-pity, but DAMN! I have been through a lot. And I'm still waiting for the proverbial tide to turn.

In other news, rehearsals start on Monday. I think we're ready. It's going to be a lot of work, but it should also be a lot of fun!

Sway through the crowd to an empty space....

It's Thursday. I had to get up early this morning to get some copies of The Jungle Book script printed. I'm super excited for rehearsals to start. But I'm also exhausted in advance. I want to see ZarahZou's vision of the story, and I'm excited to work with a bunch of new little actors. Some of our kids have never been on stage before. It's going to be so much fun. But, it's also a lot of work. We don't know if they will be hit with a sudden case of stage fright, or if they will be hyper and need a constant babysitter. So many unknowns. But I guess that's what makes being a stage manager fun!

I'm still religiously playing MyVegas slots. I really hope i get the opportunity to actually go to Vegas this spring to take advantage of all of my reward points.

You never let me cross to the other side now.....

It's a Wednesday that feels like a Monday. 5 days off was great, but it is so hard to come back to work. I could have used a few more days to sleep.

This was one of the best Christmas's I've had in a very long time. It was a wonderfully relaxing day. And a couple people gave me the best presents that show they really know me! D2 got me a bunch of wonderful Vikings themed items: a soft, fuzzy blanket, a bracelet, socks, a coffee mug....things I absolutely love! M got me things that he noticed I need: slippers, slipper socks, gloves, a travel coffee cup. Very super thoughtful stuff and I love it all. In addition to that, there was a rather large gift card to my most favorite place - Amazon.com. It's so wonderful when someone knows you so well!!

I have 12 billion work things to get done today. Taking a day off is so hard, the work just backs up. Court yesterday was interesting. But I'm not going to say too much about it in case a certain someone is googling me. If she is, please know that I just want the best for the kids and they are what is most important!

And you know it ain't fiction, just a natural fact

Thursday/Friday.....I have so much to get done today. I haven't even started on D2's card, and I need to get it done today. I think it will either be terrible or one of my greatest creations ever!

I finished a bunch of my Christmas shopping yesterday. It was so fun to shop for M's baby niece and nephew. There are so many adorable little girl clothes!! I'm so excited for everyone to open their presents!!

I broke a nail this morning, of course. Hopefully I can fix it tonight. It's almost tempting to go back to acrylics, my real nails break so often!

Don't forget that you're condemned to me.....

I think it's Wednesday today. Not sure because the week is dragging. Maybe because I have a 5 day weekend coming up. A very busy 5 day weekend. I have 12 zillion places to be for Christmas, not sure how I'm going to get it all done.

I hate to admit this, but there is something wrong with my car. Again. I love my car and I don't want a new one. Hopefully my mechanic will take my concerns seriously and fix it. I want this car to last forever, it's irreplaceable. Literally. Because Saturns are no longer being manufactured. And there is nothing similar. So, fingers crossed it's a cheap fix.

So Bingo Blitz is "giving" out Christmas "gifts". Today it's 3 hours of  daub alert, which means that the bingo numbers that are blink so you don't miss them. This is the dumbest gift ever because who even has enough credits to play for 3 hours? I can play my daily credits in under 10 minutes. Why am I still playing this game? And why did I write a paragraph about it?

And this:

The stars are shining for you, and just like me I'm sure that they adore you.....

Tuesday! And it's warming up! It was 30 degrees this morning. That means no mittens! I switched to gloves. I bought myself new ones as an early Christmas present. I've decided that regardless of how they are playing, they are my team and I will support them. I wouldn't want my fans to abandon me just because I've given up on doing the thing I get paid millions of dollars to do. Yes, I have a bit of bitterness towards them. But I'm still representing!

Viva Las Vegas, sparklin' lights, Dangerous livin', tumblin' dice

Another Monday.....I have 12,000 emails and 77 voice mails to handle because I left early on Friday. It may be a slight exaggeration on the voice mails, but I really do have that many emails. I placed an order with Amazon Prime Pantry and they sent me a separate shipping confirmation for each item. Was that really necessary?

And the Vikings.....yeah. I have nothing to say about yesterdays game.

It's a 4 day week followed by a 5 day weekend. I'm so ready for it!

Simply pretend that you can build them again......

Thursday! Yay! Tomorrow is Friday! When I got to work, I got halfway to the building before I realized I forgot my coffee. So I had to go back because today is a multiple cup of coffee day!

It's time again to decide if the bangs stay or if I cut them. I don't know why I keep coming to this dilemma because we all know they are going to stay. My forehead looks better covered by bangs!

I guess it's really winter because I pulled out my mittens. Thank you again ZarahZou for the best mittens ever!

Arms entwined, the chosen few....

Wednesday! I'm very tired, I think I'll sleep for 118 hours tonight. with my co-worker Cindy out of the office for 6-8 weeks, I am handling all of her work and I'm quite busy! But busy is good!

Auditions last night went great, but ZarahZou has some work to do because some fantastic actors showed up. I'm glad I don't have to make any casting decisions, I just get to call the people and offer them their parts.

My current addition is snapchat. And my only snapchat friend is The Princess. So I send her lots and lots of snaps. I've never taken so many selfies.

I had a fantastic hair day on Monday and I have not been able to duplicate it. I wonder what I did? Also, I have not colored my hair in nearly 3 months. And I don't think I have any gray!

Somethin' in the wind has learned my name.....

Tuesday!! I am so tired. Last night was the first night of auditions. At this point, the stage manager is just there to check people in and take notes. And, of course, introduce Mar-Mar to snapchat. We had fun taking pictures. Zarah-Zou has fantastic kids. I didn't get to sleep until about 11. I got home around 9:30, but I had so much to do. I always need to pick out my clothes for the next morning and make sure I am all set to go, otherwise I will not have enough time to get ready. I'm very high maintenance.

I'm not really on the top of the world today (I'm tired!), but I'm hoping uplifting music and extra coffee will get me there!

It's the way that I move, the things that I do oh.....

And just like that, I'm back to blogging! I needed a little break, I've been super busy at work, at home and in my head. Now that things have calmed down a bit, I can get back to me stuff, like my blog. Tonight are the auditions for The Jungle Book. I'm not auditioning because I'm stage managering. The ZennieZou/ZarahZou double threat is back for the first time in 3 years. She is directing and I'm the stage manager. The job is pretty much being bossy and organized. I'm not very good at the organized part, but I'm pretty good at telling people what to do!

I'm very fortunate to be able to go to both the Guns & Roses concert and Bon Jovi! 2 more concerts I will be experiencing for the first time. I'm really been crossing bands off the list the past 2 years.

So, the Vikings....Yes, they won yesterday. And I know a W is a W. But they have seriously got to get some things figured out QUICKLY! 3 months ago I was excited about the prospect of possibly playing in February. But now even making the playoffs are a long shot. At least we have a new kicker-guy, so there's that.