When stars collide like you and I, No shadows block the sun.....

It's Friday!!! Yay!!

I came home from work yesterday with a killer headache, so I just went to bed. Thankfully the headache is gone. I was afraid I was getting sick. My coworker Cindy has a horribly contagious respiratory infection, and I was afraid she had contaminated  me before she finally left. But I think I'm good. Apparently my headache was just the result of spending 5 hours processing commission transactions.

That is not part of my regular job, but poor Joan is out due to a horrible sudden flare up of arthritis in her spine. When I talked to her on the phone yesterday she was super loopy from the pain meds. It was hilarious. I mean, I'm sorry, shes miserable. But I was quite entertained by the conversation.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85B_REWeNcM

They just don't write 'em like that anymore.....

Its the day before Friday! Yay! I'm so ready for a weekend of nothing! Lots of laundry, finishing up Gossip Girl, and nothing else.

Last night I tried on 14 pairs of pants. None of them fit right. This is the last time I'm going to whine about this, but it is terribly unfair that the weight I'm losing is all in my hips. All of my pants are tight in the waist and huge in the hip area. I went down to my next size, and they too are even tighter in the waist and still too big in the hips. What am I going to do?

Today I am technically wearing yoga pants. So not appropriate for work. But they fit. And I guess for now that is whats important.

C-H is in labor!! I'm excited for a baby!!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgbsEz15SGg

Our old friend fear and you and me....

Wednesday! I have never been so glad to reach the middle of the week! I've already been at work for half an hour. I woke up without my alarm clock, probably because I was sleeping by 8:30.

It's weigh -in day. I'm even from last week. And I'm actually pretty happy with that since I've had to take a break from the treadmill. I think I have this plantar fasciitis thing under control. A few days away from the treadmill and lots of ice, and it seems to be going away. Fingers crossed!!

I burned my thumb on the curling iron this morning. I knew I should have used the straightener. And you would think that after having curled my hair for almost 30 years I would have the hang of it by now.

So far this morning I have used pen and paper, a calculator and algebra. Its way too early to be doing math.  Actually, if I'm being honest, I enjoy it. Hand rating insurance pricing requires extreme problem solving skills. Its a pain, but I really like math. Because I am just THAT girl.

Its a jeans day today. I remember back when I first started here the dress code was "professional" and I had to wear suits and skirts. The only jeans days were the one week a year we could buy for the United Way fundraiser. We went to a "business casual" dress code 7 or 8 years ago. I got to throw away all of my pantyhose and suits. We still couldn't wear jeans, but we could wear capri pants in the summer- which we couldn't do under the professional dress code.

With a change in upper management, we now get a ton of jeans days. Its fantastic. And now that I have jeans that actually fit well, its even better. You really can't appreciate wearing jeans until you have worn a skirt suit, nylons and heels. And that was when I was in a clerical position putting away files. Now I have my own office and I can wear jeans!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wm4F0IotaDk

Let them say we're crazy, What do they know?

It's Tuesday!!! And I just spent nearly 2 hours in my car driving to work. It was like a winter snow storm commute in July.

So my wonderful friend Ggg suggested I write a novel. He had no way of knowing that this has always been one of my dreams, and that I have started many novels. Some fiction and some the painful truth. I am so fortunate to have his encouragement, and with that I may actually get it done.

Like my blog, even if no one reads it, I have things to say. Things that need to be said. Everyone has a story. And maybe mine will inspire someone. Or entertain someone. Or just give someone something to do on a Saturday. We shall see where the story takes me, as I'm being pulled in two different directions. All I know is that I don't want it to be a sob story, because my life is not a sob story. I've gone through stuff. I've had my heart broken, I've been hurt in unspeakable ways, I've had to fight both inner and outer demons. But despite that, I have also persevered. I've lived to tell, so to speak.

I also need to say a huge thank you to Ggg, who unknowingly helped me through one of the most difficult times of the year yesterday. Emailing with him and listening to the songs he sent me proved to be just the distraction I needed before I made that dreaded phone call to wish my dad a Happy Birthday. I love my dad, and he really has been a terrific father. But this phone call is so hard because I never know where his mind will be at on his birthday. He made it clear 6 years ago when my mom died (on his birthday) that he never wanted to celebrate it again. But I can't not call him.

I'm happy to say that time really has healed, and he spent the afternoon out playing cards. And he didn't sound sad, which is a really good thing. I know it's still hard, it probably always will be. But we are definitely moving forward.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBQVrCflZ_E

But I'm young and still got time, I got to get away.....

Monday....yeah.....Monday. I really wish this was a 3 day weekend, I could use one more day away from work. I contemplated calling in, but unfortunately we've got 2 people out this week, so I kind of need to be here. And if my manager is out, who would I call into anyway.

I did accomplish finishing the first 5 seasons of Gossip Girl, so I guess that's something. And I'm on level 1051 of Candy Crush. Oh, these accomplishments!!!

Overall, I had a fantastic weekend. Spending Friday night with a great friend, a Saturday recovery day, and Netflix and laundry all day Sunday. A pretty ideal weekend.

I just got an email reminder that I have to finish some training classes. Maybe that's what I will do today. I can play the classes on one screen and work on the other.

And one of my other co-workers just called me to say she's not coming in today. We are a department of 6 people, and 3 will be out today. I'm going to need more coffee......


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zzKUtEQF9Y

And this is the part where you find out who you are: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pt2874dcth8
And for my mom: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_3cB8Trcec

And remember me tonight when you're asleep......

Apparently I am the only person in the universe who likes Pizza Hut. Well, maybe not the universe, but at least in my house. This makes me sad because P-Hut is my favorite. The breadsticks are one of my most favorite foods ever. But whatever, I will order Papa Johns. Pizza is pizza, right??

So I went here http://www.theroadsidemn.com and had the best taco I have ever had in my life. I guess I've never really considered tacos to be something you could consider as exquisite. But that is really the only word to describe it. I was a tiny bit skeptical about even trying it. I mean, it was pork belly. I knew it would be at least good because, well, its food. But I did not expect to fall madly in love with it. The description from the menu:  house smoked pork belly, queso fresco, chile lime slaw and sriracha aioli  

It was absolutely fantastically awesome! The onion rings were amazing, too. And I will most definitely be going back there. It s a cute little gas station converted into a restaurant.And you can rent out the car wash for special events. I had the best dining company and it was a perfect night.

I did maybe drink a little bit too much last night. But I had a great night just hanging out and laughing and reminiscing. A lot of times when we think about the past, we focus on the negative and the bad times and our view of history gets distorted by that. But there were also so many good times. And some truly amazing times. And I'm really glad to be reminded of those. And I'm really happy to be creating new amazing times!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1O9DyFLIKo

Those were the happiest days of my life......

It's a wet, soppy mess outside. And so now I'm a wet, soppy mess inside. Perhaps I should invest in an umbrella. But then I'd have to deal with a wet, soppy umbrella. And who wants more wet and soppy things to deal with??

At least it's Friday.

My morning started out fantastically with having to bring the demon kitty into the bathroom with me while I did my hair because she would not let TabbyWabby drink her water in peace. There is nothing like being trapped in a tiny bathroom with a monster attacking both your ankles and the power cord to your hair straightener. I hope she outgrows this soon!!

It's not even 7:00, but I'm thinking about how nice a nap would be. and I have to go to the grocery store tonight. Unless it's raining still.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IsgICaEBOX4

But at least I'm enjoying the ride, at least I'll enjoy the ride......

It is way too beautiful of a day to be cranky, so I am deciding to be in a good mood. But before that good mood starts, I will say this - there are 3 possible excuses I could accept for not doing your dishes: your hands got cut off, the house is on fire, or you're dead. I would possibly accept a zombie apocalypse, but only if we are abandoning the house. The good news is that your dishes will still be there when you wake up. And if not done, they will be waiting for you when you get home from work tonight. There, I'm done with that. Now to  move on to happier things!

The weather is absolutely perfect out. Why can't it always be like this? I went to bed at 8:30 and slept through the night. It was fantastic!

C-C-W and I are going to see Margaret Cho in October. She's hilarious. This should be fun! The last stand up person I saw was Kathy Griffin, and that was several years ago. Plus I love hanging out with C, we always have such a good time. I need to get her to commit to a date to celebrate her birthday. I'm not entirely sure what the plan is, but it will likely involve lots of alcohol and singing. Because that's what we do best!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cH7I6ibA-SM

I'm the satellite, and you're the sky.....

Weigh-In Wednesday! I have lost enough to enter into a new weight "decade". This is super exciting! I love successes. Still a long way to go, but it's working!! And my weekly points reset today. Here's to another week of staying on track!

So I gave in this morning and stopped to get a cinnamon-vanilla latte. My reasoning for this decision: I'm an adult and I can do whatever I want to! And plus, if I have the points, why can't I use them on whatever I want? I've wanted this stupid latte for WEEKS! And if I can go another 6 weeks without one, I'm way ahead of where I've been.

This latte did make me 5 minutes late for work this morning, but it is totally and completely worth it. And I'm leaving on time today because I need to pick up the princess and drop her off at her dads. and then I can go home and cook chicken! I never imagined I would be eating chicken 7 days a week. I have this Sicilian sauce packet that I'm going to use to make some sort of chicken parmesan, except not fried and no cheese. Almost the same. Almost.

I have apparently made the decision that the bangs are staying since I trimmed them this morning. Sometimes decisions make themselves!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_zY_jSVXSU

And a little bit of DMB:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzr7HKyHubk

There is nothing in the world that can change my mind

So I woke up this morning to the very painful confirmation of what I have been in denial of for the past 2 weeks. There are few things more painful than stepping out of bed and feeling the sensation of stepping on sharp glass. Plantar Fasciitis sucks! At least I'm super experienced with it, as this will be my 5th or 6th go round with it. But I really do not look forward to 6-8 weeks of sleeping with a hot, sweaty brace on my leg and spending the day icing my arch. But at least it's not shin splints, so there's that.

I have tried to be so careful. Once I felt the first twinge, I quit running and now only walk and jog. I thought I could avoid it. But alas, I was wrong. And now I guess I just have to deal with it. I will not let it derail my work out plans. Will! Not!

I think I've heard Jukebox Hero on the radio on the way to work every morning for the past 2 weeks. Pretty soon I may have to start changing the channel. Or not, since I really like Foreigner.

I just started season 5 of Gossip Girl last night. There are only 6 seasons, so I have to start thinking about what to do next. The Princess really thinks I should watch 90210. I'm still thinking about that. She says its "like the greatest show ever". But really, Psych was the greatest show ever!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4_woZ-LUvM

Shouldn't I have all of this, and.....

Another Monday....So I fell asleep at like 7:00 last night, woke back up around 10 for an hour, and then slept through the night. I love sleeping. A lot.

I saw the new Magic Mike movie with Josie on Saturday. It was good. Not great, but good. The plot kind of sucked, but Channing Tatum half naked could never be bad. And it was nice seeing Josie.

All of the things from my past, talking to ggg, seeing a movie with Josie, looking at old pictures, listening to old school rap on the radio, have led to a lot of reminiscing about the music I listened to when I was 16.

One of the most significant songs was one that I was given on a cassette single following a tumultuous break up.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8IIo4muGjM  It always evokes memories of the stupid fighting and then the following wonderful making up.

Another is this one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbUPjwCEZlY.

And then there is the song that to this day I still can't listen to. Whenever More Than Words by Extreme comes on the radio and I'm by myself, I always change the station. I don't know why, but I just have not been able to listen to it, even after over 20 years.

I am sooooo glad that the AC is off at work! I love being hot and sticky.  At least I have a fan on my desk that will blow the hot air around. Hopefully it will be reset before I melt. =)


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TCMpA5TfHc

Wearing your shirt 'cause it smelled so sweet......

Thanks to a couple of cats fighting with each other, I am awake at 5 am on a Saturday. The little kitty keeps attacking Tabby Wabby, and Tabby still won't fight back. And little Teagan is so hyper. Right now she is chasing herself around a chair leg. She's not the smartest kitty.

I can't decide if I should try to find some motivation and start my day, watch netflix, or try to go back to sleep.

I still have not watched the final episode of Sons of Anarchy. I really don't want to see the ending, but I would also like to put the show behind me so I can stop thinking about it. I wish I didn't know how it ended. But I'm also glad I have the heads up so I won't be surprised. Maybe I will finally watch it today. Or maybe I will wait a while longer.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HR57iCHNFI0

Is love so fragile And the heart so hollow.......

It's Friday! I love Friday's because when I get to work, I am the only one here. And it's so quiet. On Fridays I don't even need to be here until 7:15 instead of 6:30, and most people don't get in until 8. So I have the place to myself.  And I get to leave at 2:30!! That is the best part about a 38.75 hour work week.

Until recently, I never realized exactly how important music is to me. There are some songs that say things that words just can't express. And yes, I know that songs contain lyrics, which are words. But sometimes you just can't say what you are feeling. But a song can. and then there are the songs that really make you feel not so alone in whatever you are going through.

Last night I was looking for a picture from one of the Princesses birthday parties when she was like 10. I wanted to find the picture because I know that my hair was just past shoulder length and absolutely fabulous. And I want to cut it/grow it like that again. I didn't find the picture. But I found a lot of other memories. Things I didn't know I had kept for 25 years. I've gotten rid of a lot of stuff over the years, but there are some things I've held on to. And they are the most special things ever. And I'm at a point where I can look back and not feel the heartbreak and pain associated with them, only the hope and love from way back then.

The Princess was not born into ideal circumstances, 2 messed up teenagers struggling to figure themselves out, balancing school and jobs and parenthood. But she was born to 2 people who really, truly loved her and each other. There are a lot of things I doubt from my teenagers years. But I do not doubt that.  And we did the best we could. Alyssa, I love you more than you could possibly comprehend and you are the single greatest thing that has ever happened to me.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ew4pMpzC5B8

Baby over and over the passion starts again.....

One of my favorite things are random early morning texts. I got one this morning from my old friend Josie. It said "Hey I'm thinking u may like Amy Schumer lol" What a random and hilarious thing to text me at 6 am. I think this weekend I'm going to go and see the Magic Mike movie with her. I don't think I've seen her since our 20 year high school reunion, so that's like a year and a half.

We were best friends in 9th grade, bonding over our mutual adoration of New Kids on the Block. And then we kind of lost touch over the summer, but reconnected in the middle of 10th grade. We lost touch again and reconnected our senior year. I didn't really go out a lot in 12th grade, having a baby at home and all, so friendships were a bit difficult. After graduation, we didn't talk for several years. But then we reconnected via classmates.com. We became super close again and that lasted for several years. I don't know what happened, we just kind of drifted apart I guess. We've never, ever had a fight and always had fun. Just one of those things I guess. Sad, but it happens. Anyhow, I'm excited to see her.

I can never say enough how lucky I am to have such wonderful people in my life. There are only a few people I'm super close to, but every single one of them are wonderful. I hope they all know how much I appreciate them.

For you:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Qis6VhHWuA

I can see the new horizon underneath the blazin' sky.....

It's Weigh-In Wednesday. The scale did exactly what I expected it to, so I can't really be disappointed. A very small gain is not the end of the world, and based on how much I drank and how terribly I ate this past weekend, it's not a surprise. But it was my birthday and I love cake! And shots! I'm back on track, and next week will be different. But it does reaffirm that I need to stay within my daily points and continue on the treadmill.

The dentist last night was incredibly easy and painless. Since it wasn't a real filling, there was no drilling. And no novocaine. And it took less than 10 minutes. And now my crown is fixed!

I cut my ankle shaving. Pretty sure I need stitches. Or a skin graft. Or maybe even someone to finish my near amputation. Or I just need to quit whining about something that a band-aid will fix.

Some nice kid in my Bingo Blitz group just sent me the craw fish to finish the New Orleans room. I still question why I continue to play this game. It used to be so much fun. Now it just frustrates me. But I can't stop playing. And now I have 1300 more credits for finishing the room.

Its not humid outside, but inside its icky. It's about a million degrees and sticky.

I just got an email that we are having a pizza party tomorrow. After today's weigh in, that is not an option. So I will skip the pizza. While I will regret not having pizza, I will have more regrets if I do have it. Yes, I could make it work with my points, but its just not worth it.

Thanks to the great songs that someone is sending me, my musical appreciation has grown exponentially. I thought my music choices were very diverse, but  there are so many songs I've never heard before. And I really like many of them. No pressure, but I think I've found my musical soulmate. Even the old school songs he sends like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kr0tTbTbmVA bring back so many memories!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOvMpND2OZY

Thanks for the joy you've given me....

Back to work....ugh! I could have used another few days off. I'm not sure that there is enough coffee to get me through all these emails and phone messages. And, the dentist tonight!! Yay!!

In better news, I stopped and got my mail. And there was my favorite hot pink foil package from Ipsy. I would post a link, but that seems like too much effort. Anyhow, this months products included a super nice pair of tweezers and some sea salt spray. The bronzer I can do without, but the exfoliater looks nice.  I'm also not sure about the bronze eye crayon, but it might make a fun eye shadow. Anyhow, I love Ipsy and it is the best $10 a month I spend!

I was in bed at 6:30 last night and was sleeping by 8:30. I shouldn't be tired. Maybe all that cleaning yesterday was just exhausting. But my kitchen is SPOTLESS! Or at least it was when I went to bed. Lets hope it stays that way. I still smelled bleach this morning, so that's a good sign!!

I'm not sure what is up with my bangs today, but they are not being bangs.

If I ever tell you that you are one of most favoritest people, I really mean that. I reserve that for people like the Princess and C-C-W. So if I tell you that, it means you are super important to me.

Ok, off to tackle some of these emails. And by tackle, I mean accidentally delete them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr_eVcCAUXo

So why not start where we began.....

Vacation day!! Cleaning my kitchen is a tempting thought, but so is sitting on the couch watching Gossip Girl. Maybe coffee and Netflix is the morning, and cleaning in the afternoon?

I had the most perfect birthday party ever Saturday night. Thank you C-C-W. We met up at C-C-W's house and had a few drinks. Then her awesome husband dropped us off at Betty Dangers. http://bettydangers.com It was so much fun, we went on the ferris wheel and then took some pictures with the animals on the mini golf course. Then we took the Tiki Tram to Psycho Suzi's. http://psychosuzis.com And drank some more. Finally we ended the night with a dance party at C-C-W's.

She decorated in an awesome 80's theme, and it was fantastic. I'm so happy to have such a wonderful friend who would go all out and get me a tiara and birthday sash. And the best cake ever! I love you, C-C-W!! And thank you to the Princess and Lena for helping to make such fantastic memories!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiMUVPWE7ec

Put on a little Dylan, sitting on a fence......

It's a fabulous Thursday that doubles as a Friday! and its almost Saturday! I'm so excited for my birthday celebration. Have I mentioned that I have the best friends ever. I have the best people in  my life. All of them. I am so fortunate!

I think Sunday I need to go through my clothes. I am running out of things to wear. I guess its a good thing, except for the fact that pants are generally not optional at work.

I joined a Wells Fargo survey site and have already amassed $25 in Amazon gift certificates. I think I may use it to buy more gel nail polish. Or I could save it up. Hmmmm, all the choices!

I had the best birthday ever. I was in bed at 7:30. This was even after I went on the treadmill and took a shower. I used the time to play Bingo Blitz and Candy Crush. At the same time. There are more levels of CC. I am now on level 1001. Some of these levels are REALLY hard.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cD-2j6JzazY
And this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLK9fbk4Lp4

Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes......

Its such a beautiful day out. The weather is perfect! I celebrated my birthday this morning by NOT stopping to get a cinnamon-vanilla latte. I really wanted to, but I didn't. And I'm happy with that decision. Sort of. Its been a long time since I've had one. Maybe someday....

Speaking of a long time, last night I had the most wonderfullest glass of wine. It's been a VERY long time since I've had a glass. And it was phenomenally fantastic! Maybe the best wine ever! Sometimes not having something for a very long time makes you really appreciate when you do finally have it. But now I most definitely want another glass!! Most definitely!

I think 40 may be the best year in a long, long time!!

Weigh in this morning. I thought it was going to be bad, but I actually lost weight again. This makes me very, very happy! Now to continue this success!!!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gRiWWcBKvs

Some things in life you cannot measure by degrees....

It is such a beautiful day out. So nice that I decided to wear jeans. Actually the jeans are because I was originally wearing a pair of capri pants, but they were just too big in the hips. So emergency wardrobe change! And I think I may even wear jeans for the rest of the week. I have like 10 jeans day banked, so I may as well use them!

I have an awesome friend who is sending me a ton of songs to listen to. I can't believe that there is so much music I haven't heard before. His taste in music is exceptional, which I find a bit odd since back in the day he listened to Bell Biv Devoe and had Vanilla Ice hair. Actually, that is not fair because he did also introduce me to Cream and Joe Satriani, both of which I still listen to. Anyhow, I have loved every single song he has sent me. Except one, but maybe if I listen to it a few more times.....but probably not!

Tonight the Princess and I are going to make "mashed potatoes" out of cauliflower. That should be a nice change from the broccoli we usually have with the chicken and brown rice. Last night I went out with Sam and C-C-W. I had half of a cheeseburger. I know it was not the best choice, but it was so good. And then we went back to Sam's and watched 2 movies. I liked them both. We watched Dracula's Daughter, which is like 100 years old. And then we watched Radio Days. I don't always love Sam's movie choices, but last night was excellent!

Happy birthday, Matt-Matt. Not sure if you deleted your facebook entirely, or just deleted me. Either way, I could never forget your birthday!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxkJHX7ukKE

Sometimes I'd like to quit, nothin' ever seems to fit.....

Rainy Days and Mondays......yeah, it seems like its going to be one of those mornings. Nothing specific is wrong, I just kinda want to go home and go back to bed. And not think. Or feel. Brilliant idea: I should probably stop listening to The Carpenters and find something a bit more upbeat.

It's a 4 day week, and Friday is going to be a total "ME" day. I am contemplating a hair cut. Well, a trim. And I am going to watch Breakfast at Tiffany's for the 18 billionth time. And redo my nail color to the new one I bought. And possibly a pedicure. And maybe tanning. Or I could lay outside in the actual sun. And pretty much do nothing else. And I always have Netflix! So many options!

I guess it's time to pretend like I'm working.....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PjFoQxjgbrs
And a little bit of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NctEnrxGVHE

If ever you need a friend.....

Unless you count watching nearly an entire season of Gossip Girl as doing something, this weekend has been extremely unproductive. I did finish 2/3 of my continuing ed, but I also got sidetracked by Netflix. I've tried to watch Gossip Girl a few times but couldn't get into it. But the last time I got my hair cut, the stylist told me that I would love it if I gave it another chance. And she was right!

So my dryer is broken again. This does not make me happy. So I guess I will be tearing it apart again.  I hope the fix is as easy as the belt was. A dryer repairman I am not. But I'm sure I can figure it out. Fingers crossed!

I bought a new nail color for my birthday party, its turquoise and is called Island Oasis. I'm so excited  for next weekend and my party!! And my new dress!! And I think I need to trim my bangs. So much to do!!!

Tomorrow night is movie night at Sam's. Before the movie, he is taking me and C-C-W out for dinner. I also think I need to plan a girls night with C-C-W. Like soon!


I've never heard this song before. thank you youtube autoplay!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wo7rgmzxUbU

Straddle the line in discord and rhyme.....

I was driving in the car with the Princess yesterday and she asked to play her music instead of having to listen to me sing with whatever awesome 70's or 80's song I was listening to. When she put on Duran Duran, I was so excited! Her music tastes have certainly evolved from the days of her Screamo phase. I'm glad we can both FINALLY enjoy listening to music in the car together!

I safely deposited her at her dad's for the weekend, and I got to meet his cute little dog. Anyone that knows me knows that I am generally not a fan of pets. I don't get all emotional and gooey at the sight of a puppy or kitten. I tolerate Tabby Wabby the same way she tolerates me. I do not hate pets. And I am certainly never, ever mean to them. But the point I was getting to is that his little doggy is actually rather adorable. This may actually be a first for me. Have I ever called a dog adorable before? What is happening to me????

I spent all of yesterday doing an insurance course on workers comp. It was one of the most boring experiences of my life. Obviously when I took the exam I got 100%. Which just reinforces what a waste of time it was. I already know everything, why spend a full day being bored out of my mind? Today I am doing an ethics course and maybe flood. I haven't decided because there are so many option to choose from and they all sound just as exciting as 8 hours of reading about workers comp.

So when I finished last night, I decided I needed a break and I watched Titanic. I don't think I've watched it in its entirety since I saw it in the theater when it first came out. The first I saw it, it was truly epic. This time, I was bored.

Okay, back to ethics. Maybe I will actually learn something......


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOg5VxrRTi0

I got a feeling I'm not the only one.....

It's one of those fantastic Thursdays that double as a Friday! I am so ready for a 3 day weekend followed by a 4 day workweek and then a 4 day weekend! And so much to look forward to over the next week. Rollerskating, my birthday, my birthday party.....And my manager just texted me that he is bringing me coffee. Could a greater thing happen today?

C-C-W has requested that I no longer refer to my baby daddy as "baby daddy". So out of respect for her, we've found him a new nickname. Originally it was "Gregg with 3 g's", but that's just cumbersome.So he is officially just ggg. Which is actually kind of our best nickname creation ever. Because it makes us both giggle for some reason. I'm so fortunate to have friends that make me laugh so much!

Ggg and I are, dare I say, becoming actual friends. That's something we have not really been in 20 years. I mean, for the most part we were friendly. But not actual friends. We had a common goal, raising our daughter successfully. And there were a few fights and disagreements along the way. But now that she is an adult, we can actually talk (and laugh) without it coming down to parenting decisions and money.

I hope he realizes how thankful I am for the most precious gift I've ever gotten. I've had more wonderful in my life than I probably deserve. We have the best, most kindhearted daughter ever. I would not change anything. Things worked out exactly as they should have. And if we can now be friends, that is just a phenomenal bonus. To say I'm blessed would really understate it.

Today our manager is taking the dept out to lunch to celebrate writing $2.1 million in new premium through June. To put that in perspective, in all of 2014 our new business premium was $2.4 million. We are on track to nearly double that. I wish I could take more credit for it, but my focus has been on personal lines and bonds, with a little bit of work comp mixed in. I sell plenty of accounts, but my average account premium is about $750. Although, I did start the year writing a huge $150,000 account. Because I'm pretty much awesome.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGr6i5Sar5s

And that one guitar, made his whole life change.......

Another Wednesday and another super successful weigh in day. I'm still kind of struggling with living in the day to day instead of dwelling on how far I have left to go. Because I do have a ways to go. But I have also made a lot of progress. But I think I am finally done punishing myself with my weight and done doing the self-sabotaging thing. Yes, I've made some bad choices. But taking that out on my health and well-being is just dumb!

Speaking of dumb, I will be spending my 3 day weekend doing the 24 hours of continuing ed I have to complete before my birthday. Why did I put it off so long? My goal is to complete it Friday and Saturday so that I can have fun Sunday. I'm thinking I may go rollerskating with my old friend Jenny. I asked the Princess if I could borrow a dress and she can't believe I would wear a dress skating. I say why not? Plus, I would wear biker shorts under it. Just like the old days!

I need to call the stupid help desk because my computer is not cooperating. Something about a faulty network drive. I hate spending the morning on the phone with the help desk. For awhile I had to call them every morning to get my password reset because it wasn't saving. It was such a waste of time.


Because sometimes one guitar really can change your whole life!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c7tzi8wkYgI
And maybe a little of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Tl-kOcnn1U