I'll leave it in your hands until you're ready....

Monday.....I swear I was just sick and now I am again. This cough is going to be my death. If I was not on vacation last week I would have called in sick today. That's how icky I feel. I can count on one hand, with fingers leftover, how many times I've called in sick in  the 17 years I've worked here.

At least I got to watch an excellent football game yesterday. Where was that defense against the Packers?? I ordered my Teddy Bridgewater jersey over the weekend. So excited to get it!

I think I am all done Christmas shopping. I just have one more order to place tonight, but I'm waiting for the Princess to decide exactly what it is since it's one of her gifts for somebody.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TB54dZkzZOY

I don't want to be your downtime....

Thanksgiving dinner was great. My turkey turned out exceptionally, and I'm pretty sure it was the best stuffing I've ever made. But I was so tired, I couldn't sleep Wednesday night and was up until about 2:30 am. And then having to get up at 6....ugh! I came home from my sisters house and tried to take a nap, but I just can't sleep. Not sure what's going on, but my mind is just a chaotic mess. I tried drowning it with wine, but that's not really helping. It's not even making me drunk, just giving me a headache. I think I'm going to be up for awhile. And I have the house to myself, so it's nice and quiet.

I've been a bad blogger-person this week. I've been writing on an anonymous site because what I'm thinking and feeling are not quite appropriate for public viewing. I'm so glad I have multiple outlets for my thoughts.

This has been the fastest week of vacation ever. I so do not want to go back to work in a few days.


https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=MW6E_TNgCsY
And a side of this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OCyL6pa_L4Mu
And maybe this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_U_j6vr21sY
And finally: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Zy3fJ8Nmzyw

me gusta cantar

it's 10:30 Monday night and I just gave Layla back to her mom. I spent several hours talking to her, she's a great listener when she's not crying. I told her all about the Vikings game. She is not nearly as devastated about the loss as I am. I know it's just one game, one week, but it was supposed to be this wonderful experience. Seeing the game with someone super special, and a huge win that would set the tone for the rest of the season. Although I had a fantastic time, I wanted it to be the best night ever. And it wasn't because of the loss. I mean, I had the perfect night. Except for the loss. Maybe we can try it again someday.

I just finished making my grocery shopping list for thanksgiving. I love holidays, but they so make me miss my mom. Not in a sad way, but in a I wish she was here to celebrate with us kind of way. I really could use some motherly advice, and I know she would tell me what I should do. Above all else, she wanted her kids to be happy. And I know she would just want me to be happy, no matter what I needed to do to get there.

I haven't been up this late in a long time. I think I'm going to watch another episode of Medium and go to bed. I'm sleeping on our new couch, and it is so comfortable!!!

This is what I was singing to Layla tonight, but I made up my own words in Spanish. She seemed to like it, and me gusta cantar (I like to sing).

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_xVZtNtFnlQ

We were liars in love and we danced....

Friday! Yay! Just need to make it through today, and I get a whole week off!! And Thanksgiving!!!

So there have been a lot of posts on Facebook about Paris and Syria and refugees and terrorists. Generally I would avoid writing about anything political, but I have just a couple thoughts I need to get out. I will preface this by saying my political affiliations run liberal. I was raised by a pro-union, card carrying Democrat, and I am supportive of most social programs. Yes, reform is needed. A lot of reform. But that is not what I want to write about. I will save that conversation for another day.

So, my personality and my instincts and who I am - I want to help people. I'm a helper and I'm a carer. I care about all of humanity. And I am so frustrated with seeing all of the anti-refugee posts. The fact of that matter is that if terrorists want in, they are going to get in. How can we deny helping innocent people, innocent women and children, who truly need our assistance?

Some of the people on Facebook that I know personally are posting about how we should help our homeless and vets here in the States before we help refugees. Well, of course we should! But why can't we help everyone? Helping people should not be limited to just one group. We all should help everyone who needs it. And the sad fact is that most of the people posting this are not helping anyone. They have never done any sort of volunteer work or donated money to a homeless shelter. They have not stocked the shelves at a food bank or spent an entire day sorting and folding clothes for a community closet. I have. Many times I have. I am doing my part. And if a piece of "my part" is wanting to help Syrian refugees, then I am entitled to do so. My wanting and yearning to help is not limited to any specific race or class or religion or country. I want to help as many people as I can, in as many ways as I can. The thing that we all have in common, regardless of where we live, who we love, and what we worship is that we are human. And no human in the entire world should go without food, clothes and a safe place to live. No human should live in fear of violence.

We should most definitely help our homeless and vets in the US. But that doesn't mean we can't also help those that are outside of the US. If we all worked together and helped everyone, the world would be a much better place. and really, isn't it our responsibility to make it that better place???


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zB1Q-PfUvN0

She's half out of her head.............

Thursday! Or the day before Friday!! I'm so ready for the weekend!

Tonight after a quick trip to the grocery store (I haven't been to Target in nearly 6 days!) I'm going to watch Layla for awhile. I think I'm going to introduce her to RHCP and see if she likes them. She loves Shinedown!! My life has become "baby" and it's not even my kid! lol

Just a few more days until the Vikings game! I am so excited!

I think/hope that I'm getting new furniture this weekend. Well, new to me. My sister is selling me her stuff for practically free. And its way nicer and cleaner than what we've got. I just need to be able to work out the logistics. and I need to get the other decision-maker (haha) in my house to agree.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1BTURu7oAc
and this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-zP66eSLto

Thinkin' no one could open my door....

Weigh-in Wednesday! And down another .2 from yesterday, so 3.2 down from last week. The scale is finally going down. I guess I just need to be persistent and not give up!

And I just have 3 more days to get through before a whole week off! And Thanksgiving! My sister decided she is buying a smoker and she wanted to smoke a turkey for Thanksgiving. Um, no! She is more than welcome to smoke whatever she wants for Christmas and any other holiday. But my turkey needs to go in the oven. The entire dinner depends on it! My stuffing would not be the same if it wasn't cooked inside the turkey! And the gravy! How could I possibly make it without the juice the turkey was cooked in?? It wouldn't be the same! One year she wanted to have garlic roasted red potatoes instead of mashed. I thought after my tirade she would never again try to ruin my traditional dinner. She just doesn't get it.

I actually had to take Advil for my cramps. I haven't had cramps since I was like 16 years old.

Countdown to the most important game of the season: 5 days! I'm trying hard to not get too excited, but I did not anticipate just how big this game would be when I got the tickets. It very likely could be the pivotal game that decides who wins the division. No pressure or anything. But the Vikings are 1-0 vs. Green Bay when I've gone to the game, and I have my lucky bra, so I think we can do this. The Packers are going to be playing with a vengeance, but our defense can actually defend this year. It should be a great game and I can't wait!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOpwA6rGUR4

And looking back now, Ain't it funny how I've been trying to get back home, yeah.....

I know it's not Wednesday, but I felt like I needed to step on the scale today. I'm glad I did, because I'm down 3 pounds from last week. I find this amazing considering I feel bloated and gross. I'm so very happy about this!

At work on Friday we are having a "Vikings/Packers game day potluck" and are supposed to bring the types of food you'd eat during a game. And we are supposed to dress in our team colors. But I absolutely cannot wear my jersey and risk the good luck its been bringing. So I need to find some other purple to wear. I'm thinking I will wear my purple boots because I love them. And maybe just a sweatshirt? I don't know. Just anything except my jersey. Maybe I will bring a veggie platter so I can eat something without it affecting my points and weight.

So I saw a post on Facebook that said "I'm not a rock, don't take me for granite". I thought it was cute. It reminded me of these pins my dentist used to give out that said "Ignore your teeth and they'll go away". I guess it's because if you replace "teeth" with "people" it makes a lot of sense. And I try really hard to not take any of the important people in my life for granted. There are so few people in my life that are truly important to me, and I need to remember to cherish these relationships. I know I'm a hard person to get close to, I don't like letting people in. When you let people in and when you need them in your life and you trust them, that's when they also have the power to destroy you. I don't like needing people. But there are a small number of people I need in my life. And I hope I never take them for granted. Or for granite, since they aren't rocks. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YYVUy_jgCcU

You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get .....

Another Monday. But if I can just get through this week, then I have a whole week off!!! I had a pretty good weekend, Saturday the Princess and I watched a movie called Would You Rather. It was the most effed up movie I've seen in a long time. It was good, just messed up. Then Layla came over and we hung out and listened to Rage Against the Machine. She seemed to like it.

Sunday was the Vikings game!! I went to my dads and brought food from Sweet Taste of Italy. I used a groupon and got a great deal!!  They have the best spaghetti ever! Everything else is okay, but the spaghetti is super duper awesome! And when I bought the groupon, I used a 20% coupon code and went through Mr. Rebates, so it was like practically free!!

Plus, we won!! And the Packers lost! It was a very good game, and I'm so excited for next week! The game is going to be HUGE! And The Princess even asked a few questions about the rules and I tried to explain how downs work. Even when I changed "downs" to "chances" I'm still not sure she got it, but she listened and asked questions. Maybe she will become a football fan! If that happened, I would so find a way to fit season tickets into my budget. Actually, if I could find anyone to commit to going I would get season tickets.

I finished Chasing Life and started watching Girlfriends Guide to Divorce. Love it!! It's a great show.

And in this episode of "It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to", I'm going to whine for a second. One of the benefits/side effects of an IUD is supposed to be not having to deal with a monthly cycle. And it was that way for 10 years. But the past 2 months I have not been so lucky. And currently I am experiencing PMS and all of the classic symptoms: bloating, cramps, mood swings, and my face has EXPLODED into one big zit. So, because of that, we get teen angst:
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_UMT1HyOyos

Well this is just a little Peyton Place, and you're all Harper Valley hypocrites....

Friday! I am so glad this week is nearly over. Yesterday was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. But today I can start over and celebrate that it's the end of the week! And one week of work left until I get a week off!

I hope this nice weather continues for at least another week or so until the Vikings game!

I am pretty sure that my Kuerig is broken. That sucks because it's a newer model and I haven't had it that long. I guess I will screw around with it when I get home and see if I can fix it. Otherwise I guess I have my old one in the garage some place.

I got this nail polish in an Ipsy shipment:  http://loveaila.com/collections/nail-colors/products/mister-pookies?variant=1095159127     I absolutely love the color. But it costs $17. It pains me to pay $10 for a gel color that I know will last for 2 weeks. Paying $17 is just way too much for a polish that will chip in a few days.  I just checked ebay and a few people are selling it for $6-7 a bottle. So do I buy them all and assume I will continue to love this color or do I buy reasonably and risk that if I want more I need to pay $17?? Sometimes it really, really sucks being a girl!! These dilemma's are so unfair!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08QH3rVqokw

He plays a melody born to tear me all apart...........

Weigh-In Wednesday. I will be honest and say I was slightly terrified to step on the scale. I skipped last weeks weigh-in, and based on how much beer and junk I've eaten, I didn't think it was going to be good. But I was only up 1.6 pounds. And in the whole scheme of things, that is not bad. And I am back on track and next week should see me at least down that much.

So way back like 100 years ago, my very first ever ebay purchase was this cd single: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kmEsJFwxgQ  I have no idea why, other than that it is such a super fun song. It reminds me so much of rollerskating.

My second ever ebay purchase was this cd single: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r21tdXEfJn0
I may or may not have been pining after a lost love who had broken my heart and married someone else. I listened to the song on repeat so many times that I'm a bit surprised the cd still plays. p.s. I do not like Mariah Carey's cover. Not even a little. Anyhow, it's one of my most favorite songs, even if listening to it makes my heart hurt a little.

I don't remember what my 3rd ebay purchase was, but I'm pretty confident it involved lip gloss of some sort. I just checked and I have 561 feedback transactions. That's a lot of make up!!!

And finally, one of the most beautiful and haunting songs I've ever heard. Most def in my top ten:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNeyF1khFA8

'Cause if I can't have it all......

Its Tuesday, my 6th favorite day of the week. Last night after the treadmill, Layla and I hung out for a couple hours. She is such a good baby. But she was a bit cranky, so I was kind of glad to give her back after a while. The babies you can give back are the best kind!!

I'm so happy with the warmer weather. The longer it stays warm, the longer I can avoid turning on the heat. I hate having the heat on. If it could just stay 45-50 all year round, I would never have to turn on the heat!

I got a super late start today and did not get to work until 6:25. I just felt so unmotivated. I think I'm going to need a lot of coffee.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PcXzjK1j35s

You think it's easy finding someone out there....

Monday! I had a fantastic weekend, and am so sad it's over. Saturday was spent on a trip to the grocery store and binge-watching Chasing Life. I really think I like that show. Sunday was lunch and the Vikings game with my dad, followed by 5 hours babysitting Layla.

The Princess actually asked a couple of football-related questions, and I explained the AFC and NFC and divisions. I'm not sure if she has ever asked me anything about sports.

The game was one of the most intense I've seen in a while. I hate going into OT, especially when it so often comes down to a field goal. And when you don't have a kicker you can depend on.....I'm so glad we were able to pull off the win, and shout-out to Walsh for the game winning kick!!

Plus, the Packers lost. We are now tied for first in the division!!

But, my QB-guy got hurt. I really hope Teddy is okay. Our plan b quarterback is the plan b for a reason.

Layla almost cost us next weeks game. She came over right after I got home, and I didn't have time to change. So, I was wearing my jersey when she decided to spit up. Thankfully she did not get any on me, because then I would have had to wash the win out of my jersey. I am now more convinced than ever that we are winning due to my jersey and my purple lace bra. So, that tradition shall continue!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fM44F-M78Vs
And a little of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OeZmJOIzTUY

I hear the magic in your eyes....

Friday!! Its been a long week. I didn't get home until 10 last night, and then I couldn't fall asleep. Brigit's play was good, and it was nice to see ZarahZou. Thank you so much for buying my ticket, ZarahZou! And thank you for the awesome Europe Swag Bag! I'm still not sure about the salted licorice, but I will try it again and see.

I had to stop and get coffee and a diet coke this morning. Because of this:

About 7 or 8 years ago I fell down the stairs and broke my tailbone. Like legit, for real broke. The 2 month healing process was horrible. I couldn't sit, stand, walk, lay down, or breath without a lot of pain. Anyhow, since then, a couple times a year it hurts really bad. There was nothing that could be done then, and nothing that can be done now. Back before my high deductible health plan I went to the doctor several times. The answer was ice, tylenol, and wait. It hurts right now. A lot. But a cinnamon-vanilla latte and a diet coke will help. Right?!?!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_scFjd2pSI

I don't stop and think before I let myself go......

Thursday! As nice as it is to have a day off in the middle of the week, it is so hard to come back and get into the flow of things. I checked my work email multiple times yesterday, and I still have about 80 emails to deal with.

Tonight me and ZarahZou and going to see Brigit in her first college play. I'm not sure how I will handle going out 2 nights in the same week. This is a lot for me! At least I have a whole weekend of absolutely nothing!

So yesterday Ggg sent me a song by : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paloma_Faith  I super liked it, and listened to several more of her songs. I like them all. I think this is my favorite so far:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eihb8RCMlFk&sns=em

Do you still feel the pain......

So why am I awake at 3:30?? Ugh!!!  I got home from the concert, changed out of my sweaty gross clothes, and went to sleep. The concert was fantastic. And by that I mean I had an excellent time, despite the fact that it was 1,722 degrees. Dripping with sweat does not even describe it. So very icky!! I hope the person I used as a sweat rag is not annoyed with me!! Sorry and thank you!!

I'm so very happy that my favoritest people met and seemed to like each other. Not that I was worried  they wouldn't, but it's awesome when that happens. Especially since I don't really like too many people.

Today is going to be spent doing laundry and taking lots of naps. My most favorite and least favorite things, not in that order.


https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=y-yYKvHp2sw

Have you ever had the odds stacked up so high.....

Tuesday! And concert day! Yay! I'm super excited Plus, I get to leave at 11 and I have tomorrow off! Unfortunately I'm still feeling a bit icky from Saturday, but I'm hoping I can drink that feeling away tonight. Probably not one of my better ideas, but we shall see!

Last night Layla and I spent an hour trying to find something for me to wear tonight. She wasn't a lot of help, she just kept giggling. So then I had to call in the pros, and The Princess and her friend C found my outfit. It's a little out of my comfort zone, but they insist it's perfect. We shall see. I don't think I've ever worn a sweater with studs on it.

Today we are taking a group picture to send to our former VP. He is from WI and is a Packers fan. So we are all dressing up in Vikings clothes. I had to explain to someone in the elevator that I could not wear my jersey because the last several times I have worn the jersey and my purple lace bra, we have won. And I can't risk any other vibes on my jersey. And it might not appreciate being in a picture for a Packers fan. So I wore a purple sweater. That's my compromise.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIGMUAMevH0

It's just a silly phase I'm going through....

Monday.....I'm still hungover from Saturday night. I drank way too much. But I got a new high score on the SUPERantispyware drunk scale! So, I guess I win. I did have a lot of fun. Or at least what I remember was fun. The band was great, and I kind of remember dancing a little. But that could be my imagination.

Tomorrow night is Shinedown!! I need to feel better so I can drink again. I will most definitely not be drinking as much as I did Saturday, I hate getting sick. I am so excited for the concert! And I'm super excited for my 2 favorite people to meet. I hope they like each other since I like them both so much. But then, how could they not?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ln86-fteBOc