You disappeared down route eighty-seven.....

FRIDAY!! I went to bed at 7:30 last night. As in, fell asleep at 7:30. And then I slept in for an hour this morning. I love sleep. And I love Friday. What I do not love is waking up to a sink full of dishes and spending another weekend catching up on laundry. But what do you do??

Tax time! The time of year when my Facebook newsfeed is filled with posts about how much money everyone is getting back and what they are going to do with it. This year I am hoping to just break even. I've had to pay in the past 2 years due to moving some money from my 401k, but I think this year I may even get a small refund. As long as I don't have to pay in.....

But leave a memory no one'll be forgettin....

Last night me and the Princess went over to Ggg's and made Fry Bread Tacos. That is one of my most favorite dinners ever, but I don't make them very often because they are such a pain. Fry bread is so time consuming to make. But so worth it!!! And dinner was phenomenal!!!

While cooking (and after dinner since its 17 hours long) we watched Straight Outta Compton. Such a good movie!! It brought back so many memories. I used to listen to my Eazy-E and NWA cassette tapes all the time. And they are both in my roadtrip cd collection. I can totally see why there is so much Oscar controversy, the story line and the acting were amazing. I'd really like to watch it again (hint hint) when I'm not so busy standing at the stove watching oil boil.

I'm glad it's Thursday. I'm already ready for a weekend. It's so hard to get back into the swing of things after taking a couple days off. At least my work will always pile up and wait for me!!


https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=B_xroIc3Hpw

That ain't nothin' but ten cent lovin'.....

Wednesday/Monday.....it's so hard to come back to work after 4 days off. I have 26 voice mails. And more emails than I care to mention.

Someone told me that I was uptight and conservative. I'm not sure that they necessarily meant it in a bad way, but it certainly got me thinking. And I realized as I was starching the sleeves of my shirt that maybe it's true. I do tend to play by the rules and I like routine. This morning I broke from my routine and only brushed my teeth once. I'm living on the edge.

But I guess the real discussion is if circumstances made me who I am, or if I am the way I am because of circumstances. There have been many, many parts of my life that have truly sucked. I've been through a lot, more than anyone should have to go through. And that I'm reasonably sane is somewhat of a miracle. I still struggle with some things, and maybe that's why I like routine. I like to be able to control some things. I need to be able to control some things. I learned a long time ago that you can't control what other people do. But I can be in control of myself. And because life is so uncertain and situations are so tenuous, I need to hang on to the aspects of it that I have control over.

I been one poor correspondent, and I been too, too hard to find.....

Friday, and after today a 4 day weekend!! The Princess is turning 24. How can she possibly be that old already? Time is flying! Every year seems to go faster and faster. I have a full weekend of laundry planned. I so love doing laundry.

I'm about 88% sure I don't match today, but I am 102% certain that I don't care.

So last night I ran for half a mile. And I'm probably done running forever. I think I may be too old to run. Or at least my knees are too old. I wish I would have never stopped. But I guess I will stick to walking. And I'm running out of pants that fit right. I should be happy about this, but it's so frustrating trying to find something to wear. I wish I could wear yoga pants to work.

Something really good is happening to someone really important to me. I'm very happy about this. But it's not my story to tell, so I will just say congrats!


One of my all time favorites:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ForjNZpFQU

All these lights, they can't blind me....

Thursday.....the temp is 22 and gas is at $1.65. Pretty sure these are a sign on the apocalypse. Gas under $2/gallon is such an awesome thing!!! I stopped at the gas station and bought a diet coke. Actually, I bought 2. Partly because YOLO and partly because they were buy one, get one for $1.

My laundry is piling up again. My dryer sometimes smells likes its burning. Am I just incapable of using a dryer correctly? It's BRAND NEW! I think I will clean out the vent again and see what happens.

I think it's time for a haircut. Well, a hair trim. And then I have to decide that my hairstyle is going to be. Right now I think the style is called Blah. As in just hanging there. Maybe some layers? I don't know.

Yes, this is One Direction. But I love both these songs.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jwgf3wmiA04
And this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ho32Oh6b4jc

But you know that there is no innocent one in this game for two.....

Wednesday.....it snowed a little last night and that made me a few minutes late for work. The roads weren't bad, but the drivers were terrible.

I'm back to playing Words with Friends, and I lost a game. This makes me sad. I'm a terrible loser. lol

I love love love this song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRh_vgS2dFE

We make it harder than it has to be.....

So yesterday I gave The Princess her birthday present early because she was having such a bad day. I think I made her day better, although she started to cry because she was so happy. I'm glad she's so excited to see Fall Out Boy. And that's kind of a dumb band name. But what do I know, I don't have a band. And since they are bazillionaires, I guess they can name their band whatever they want.

Last night I pulled the rest of my soft, comfy sweaters out of storage. Not sure why I waited so long. But I didn't have a choice, it is either 56 degrees or 103 degrees in my office. No in between. I also found a couple pair of pants that fit. So yay for new clothes.

I spilled half my coffee in my car this morning. Because really, that's just how I roll. What kind of day would it be if I wasn't spilling stuff all over me??

I think this is my favorite Eagles song. But I'm not sure because I like so many. RIP Glenn Frey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6yyWKzPBCM

But I should have been with you instead......

Monday.....I need more coffee. This morning I had to drag all the things I need to fix a chipped gel polish nail with me to work. This includes the LED lamp, base coat, top coat, color and the glitter I have on top of all of that. And that is not even all that is needed for a gel manicure. I didn't bother with the pre-polish treatment or the post polish stuff that makes it not sticky. This is a lot of work. One of my nails chipped while I was sleeping. Ugh. But I couldn't not fix it.

I went to bed at about 7:30 last night. I should not be so tired right now!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIgZ7gMze7A

So send a smile, and show you care.....

Friday!! I'm so glad, I am ready for the weekend. This has been such a long week. But in better news, I am finally in a really good place in my head.  I realized this yesterday when I volunteered to volunteer to co-chair the United Way committee. After being co-chair and then chair for so many years, I resigned and swore to never do it again. But I think that was more of a reflection of where I was at personally and less about the committee. Because I love being in charge of the committee. And now it has evolved into more of a catch-all and encompasses all the charitable acts throughout the year. This is really my kind of thing. And I can't believe I walked away from it when I love it so much. I am so happy to have it back.

Speaking of good things, I got beautiful flowers yesterday from a new friend. Such a sweet, thoughtful gesture on her part. And yes, they are really from a her. lol I so appreciate the thought.

I got to hang out with baby Layla for a bit last night. She is getting so big. Time is flying by.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzktQty-sbU

And I just can't live without you; can't you see it in my eyes?.....

So I didn't win the lottery.....but at least someone did so I can stop buying tickets. That's kind of like a win, right?

I'm wearing jeans today thanks to the Packers win, so at least I can thank them for that. And actually, I'm not even wearing jeans. I'm wearing jeggings. Because jeggings, a t-shirt, a huge, comfy sweater and boots are pretty much the greatest outfit ever. For a 23 year old.

I have a massive stack of sticky notes on my desk I need to sort through. Why don't I throw them away as I go? I have no idea who I've called back. Usually I am so much more organized than that. But I think I've finally got my head straight and can let all the drama and nonsense go. I am an adult and I need to act like one. Sometimes it's a struggle, but at the end of the day I know whats important and I know who I am and who I want to be.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIycEe59Auc

I'd like to think the best of me Is still hiding up my sleeve....

Weigh in Wednesday, I should not have weighed myself yesterday so that I would be more surprised today. I am down another 1.5 pounds. This makes me very happy. I am at my lowest weight in a couple years. Still a ways to go, but progress!!

So, I got a huge settlement check in the mail yesterday from a class action lawsuit against a bank for late fees or something. I'm not exactly sure how I am going to spend my $7.15, but I did immediately deposit it. Maybe it will help make up for how much my health insurance went up this year. I don't know the exact amount because I've been avoiding the emails, but I know it went up. Up a lot more than $7.15.

Today is my last day being part of the working poor because tonight I am winning $1.3 billion. I typed "amen" repeatedly on a Facebook post, so I'm pretty sure my numbers can't lose. My suitcase is packed and I am ready for the beach.

I have a lot going on this weekend. First a pedi Saturday morning with ZarahZou! It's been way too long!  Then the Gophers game! Then more girl time with a friend and drinks. And then Sunday football with my dad. This is a lot of socializing for me. But it's probably good to get out more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1W2UddURXI

But do I really feel the way I feel....

Tuesday....so I decided I needed to get on the scale because the truth is that I feel ridiculously fat and icky. I expected to find out that I've gained 20 pounds. But the actual fact is that I've lost 1/2 a pound. So the only thing I can think of is that my emotional state is weighing me down. (that's sort of a punny joke, which isn't really funny when I feel the need to point it out). Anyhow, I'm glad the scale is not reacting to the way I feel. I've tried my  best to avoid eating away my feelings, and I think I've succeeded. And once I get all this stuff out of my head, I will be okay. Just a few things I need to talk to someone about.

I went outside this morning (and yes, it's cold) and started driving. But then I realized I forgot my winning powerball ticket and I want to cash it in to exchange for more tickets. So I had to go back home and get it because I know if I don't stop on the way home, I will put it off. And I can't put off winning a billion dollars. Especially since I've already spent it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KK5YGWS5H84

Although I wasn't there, he said I was his friend.....

I said I would never again delete a blog post, and I'm standing by that even though I should delete my post from Saturday night. But I will save it as a reminder of how I should not be irrational and emotional. Because that's not who I want to be. And I'm not giving up writing for anyone. I think I need it. I just need to remember that there are always 3 sides to every story, and I need to get all of the info before I get upset or hurt or angry. And now on to my life:

It's Monday. I went to bed super early last night. Probably because I didn't sleep at all Saturday night. The Vikings.....yeah, the Vikings. I don't really want to talk about the game. Being born a Vikings fan is the worst fate ever. But I'm ready for next year. And I finally get to wash my socks!!!!

The Princess created the most wonderfullest casserole thing ever. It's Mac and cheese, hamburger and bacon topped with French fries. It is phenomenal!!

I made a huge mistake this morning and decided not to wash my hair. I did take a shower, but decided to skip that part. And so now I feel like my hair is all greasy. It's probably not, but I feel that way.

The super mega rolls of Charmin toilet paper suck! You can't put them on the toilet paper spinny thing because it won't spin because the roll is too big. I only bought it because it was on Ibotta, cartwheel, and I had coupons and I got a gift card for buying 2. But what a mistake! That's my sob story for the day. Back to work!!!

R.I P.David Bowie
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZM0e1m9T9HQ

I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch.....

C-C-W just left my house after a great night of hanging out. Well, mostly great. She gave me the greatest Christmas presents ever. I would post pictures, but that is just a tad too much effort for my current level of drunk. Then something happened that just kind of blew my world apart. I don't really want to write about it right now. I don't really want to think about it right now. I just want to continue to drink myself into oblivion.

I think it may be coming to a time to quit writing my blog. I just need some time to deal with some stuff. I'm enjoying writing and it sucks that one person could have enough control in my life to make me not want to write anymore. I love writing. And this is just not fair. But life isn't really fair, is it? It just sucks that AGAIN I end up on this end of things. Maybe this is my destiny, I'm just always going to lose. I'm going to be lied to over and over. But it is what it is, right?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-nrGWwHalCU

We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts.....

Friday!! I'm so over this week! I was up way too late last night. When I got home, the Princess and I started watching a movie called H8RZ. It was actually an okay movie, the ending was a huge twist that I didn't expect. And with all the Lifetime-like movies I've seen, I can usually call the ending. Anyhow, we had to pause it numerous times while making dinner. So then I didn't get on the treadmill until almost 7. Usually by that time I'm already done and showered and in bed.

Tomorrow night C-C-W and I are having a much needed girls night. Drinking and maybe a movie. Probably singing, because we are so good at it. And then checking our lottery numbers. Every part of my body is crossed, hoping for a win. I'm so ready to run away.

I'm wearing a belt today. I hate wearing belts. But these jeans are just too big. This makes me both very happy and very sad. They are brand new. But when I bought them I couldn't get them over my hips. Since this time last year I've lost over 30 pounds. But 30 more to go. Slow and steady??


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aeETEoNfOg

There's a phrase that fits.....

So I didn't win the lottery last night. This is most unfortunate because I would make a spectacular socialite. C-C-W and I have plans to open a bar on the beach in Hawaii. And if I was a millionaire, the drinks would be ultra-cheap. There's a meme thing going around facebook asking God to give the person a chance to prove that winning the powerball wouldn't change them. But I ain't even going to lie - winning $500 million would definitely change me. Well, at least my lifestyle. I have big dreams of opening up a homeless shelter. And I would do that. From a white sand beach, of course. I would hook up a few of my favorite people. And get rid of a couple of my unfavorites.

I finished Empire and I can't wait for new episodes! It is a fantastic show. I started watching Finding Carter, an MTV show. It's okay, but I'm only 2 episodes in and not sure where it's going. I will give it a couple more episodes.

Side note to YOU: If I do not respond to your messages and I block you on multiple accounts, there is a very good chance I'm not interested in talking to you. Ever. I'm trying really hard to not be mean, but you don't really have a place in my life. I'm just not interested.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGpFcHTxjZs

I ain't guilty, it's a musical transaction.....

So yesterday my hip started hurting, and I was thinking I may be going through another bout of bursitis. Or I'm just getting old. Either way I'm sure I need a hip replacement. This morning I was thinking about this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DUT5rEU6pqM 

One of the radio stations I listen to in the morning plays what they call the "first song of the day", and it's something older and not usually played on the radio. So when that song came on, it was like a sign. Because my hips don't lie.

I'm so glad it's Wednesday already. I need a weekend already. Monday and Tuesday I was all dressed up for work, heels and all, for no reason. Today I am wearing the equivalent of yoga pants and a t-shirt with polka dot socks. And I just looked at my calendar and I have a couple marketing reps coming in. Yay for good impressions! I need to plan better.

And this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weRHyjj34ZE

But now it feels so strange out of the atmospheres......

So I left work early yesterday and went home to take a nap. Except I didn't take a nap, I continued my binge-watching of Empire. I super like that show. The music is phenomenal. I'm so glad I started watching it.

Pedi appointment with ZarahZou on the 16th. That's going to be a busy day, pedi in the morning followed by my first Gopher b-ball game in a long, long time. I wish I had someone to go with more often, I love the atmosphere of The Barn.

I cut my bangs, so I guess they are staying. They are actually semi-straight, so that's good.

I just really don't understand some people. And I probably never will.


One of my all time favorites:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzDoSmFEhQg

And I'll fall right back to you.....

Monday. Another Monday where I was up way too late Sunday night thanks to the Vikings. But so worth it. The game started out a bit boring. But the last few minutes - OMG! What a great game. And we won the freaking division!! Yes, I understand this does not put us in the most favorable playoff position, but ANY GIVEN SUNDAY!!! Plus, we beat the Packers! And we won the division!

New Years Eve was very unexciting. I was sleeping by 10:30. Alyssa and I had a movie night, and I even convinced her to have a glass of wine. We watched the 2 newest Halloween movies, and have now finished them all. Except 3, because that one doesn't count. 

The rest of my weekend was also uneventful. I did do about 200 loads of laundry. I think I might almost be caught up. And I finally dumped out the hamper that I put my dry cleaning and work clothes in at after I wear them. And at the bottom I found a brand new pair of jeans. I'm sure I put them there a couple years ago because they were too small. But now they fit absolutely perfectly. Actually they may be a tad big. 

I watched the final season of Parenthood and the. Started watching Empire. I super like it.

I don't think there is enough coffee in the universe to wake me up today. I think I may take a half day of PTO and go home and sleep. I love sleep! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxxstCcJlsc