Life's a dance, you learn as you go....

How come you always want what you can't have? Doesn't it seem like the things that taste the best are the absolute worst for you? The clothes that fit the best are the most expensive? Your basketball team doesn't have the most talent AND the best coach at the same time? The lipstick that lasts the longest contains lead? The people that are the most perfect fit for you are not in a position to give you what you want and need?

I've been having the same daydreams and night dreams about cupcakes every day and night for the past 3 weeks. I get on the straight and narrow, start exercising, eating right, blogging again, quit smoking, am finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. But then all I want is freaking cupcakes. And the thing with cupcakes is, one bite is never enough. And anything more is just too much.  Cupcakes are truly the best thing ever: sweet and nice and just absolutely perfect. But what if you just can't have the cupcake because it belongs to someone else? And even if they are willing to share, you won't get the whole cupcake to yourself. Do you want just part of a cupcake? Or do you want the whole thing? OF COURSE YOU WANT THE WHOLE CUPCAKE!! But what if you can't have it? Do you walk away from the best cupcake in the world because you can only eat the frosting? Or do you wait in hopes that someday maybe you will get the whole thing? And what if that can never happen? And what if you really shouldn't have it? What if the calories are not worth the risk?

Sometimes the stars align and you find something that feels magical. That perfect cupcake. Of course it has its flaws, no cupcake is perfect. But what if its the perfect cupcake for you? What if it's a cupcake that makes your heart beat a little faster, makes you giggle, makes you feel good about yourself? But what if its just not your cupcake to feel that way about? Why oh why oh why must life be so complicated? Why do thoughts and feelings have to get in the way of something that could otherwise be perfect?

Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry about what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go
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